I’m surprised at my level of anger over the new policy. I teared up. And I have a hard little heart. I am dismayed and MAD. I think it’s a hateful, cruel policy.
At the same time, I feel like this is the LDS church waving around its true colors. Every liberal Mormon is in anguish. Every chapel Mormon is like *shrug*. It’s weird to watch the church I belonged to for so many years 1) become openly a hate group (though some would argue that happened with Prop 8) and 2) fundamentalize itself even more.
There’s no space for liberal members. There’s so space for allegory, metaphor, nuance. There is only a literal worldwide flood, a tower of Babel, using Genesis as literal history. Teh gayz are bad, mormons are good. This is all bullshit.
I’ve been attending sacrament with my husband to support him. I don’t know if I can do that anymore. I don’t want anyone to think I am Mormon ever again! It would embarrass me!